I tried to keep myself busy today to keep my mind off the fact that it's been three weeks already and I feel like I should still have a baby in my belly. I should still be preparing for what I'll need to do to prepare for a baby. But I know now that this just isn't going to happen. It just hurts so bad to know that Ana isn't here.
I decided today would be the day I purchased Ana's ring. I decided that I wanted to get a mother's ring after Ana passed so I could always wear something to remember her with. While I've gotten three amazing necklaces which each have significant meaning for Ana, I wanted something that has the birthstones of Ana, Ana's father, and myself.
I finally found the ring I wanted, a three stone princess cut white gold ring with diamond accents. When I saw it, it just felt so right and I knew I had to get it. Ana'a father's birthday is the same as hers, therefore they both have an October birthstone. I was born in June. The birthstones are simulated since I don't want to use opal (Oct), pearl (June), and opal (Oct). These birthstones will be Rose Zircon, Alexandrite, and another Rose Zircon.