Nobody Knows It But Me...

While I know there are people out there that feel the way that I do... this song gives you a good idea of how I'm feeling right now. I know nothing will bring her back but I love her so much and I keep thinking... what if I insisted to the docs to do more? What if? Would she still be here? Would I still have my baby inside me?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cZStYZPs0KE


Wish I told her how I feel,                        (mama told you she loved you every single day, and she still does)
Maybe she'd be here right now
but instead... 

I pretend that I'm glad you went away       (I could never do this)
These four walls closing more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show                  (especially right now)
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm crying inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say the things I needed to say           (to the doctors, to the nurses, to my friends to get me to ER)
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a-tumblin' down                    (it sure feels like it)
I can say it so clearly but you're nowhere around

The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you 
And nobody knows it but me

I carry smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm trembling inside 
And nobody knows it but me (yeah)

Lie awake, it's a quarter past three                           (often I'm up thinking about you late at night)
I'm screaming at night if I thought you'd hear me        (I hope you still hear me from heaven)
Yeah, my heart is calling you
And nobody knows it but me (well, well)

How blue can I get?
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
Billion words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be loving you still            (forever and ever Anabelle Luz!)

The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you 
And nobody knows it but me

oooo oohhhhh yeah

Tomorrow morning, I'm a hit a dusty road
Gonna find you, where ever, ever you might go
And I'm gonna load my heart and hope you come back to me

The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you 
And nobody knows it but me